Michigan

Unlike November in California you cant ignore that it's December in Michigan!!

Empty

Empty apartment. Put all my stuff into storage. Leaving day after tomorrow to fly back to Michigan for 3 weeks before I leave for Costa Rica. It feels really good to not have anything but my packed bag ;)

Addictions

addicted to
people
places
things
feelings
moments

One of many memories stuck on repeat...
driving in Nicaragua at dusk
the humidity like soft kisses on my shoulder
green rolling hills passing me by

Genny says my soul wandered away to play and got lost
I think she may be right

Love

The older I get the less I know what love is and the more I am made aware of my addictions.


12:48amElizabeth
genny says I dont know how to fall in love
12:48amJessica
mmm
not true
12:48amElizabeth
shes right
I dont
im always trying to control it
12:48amJessica
mm
yes
that is very true
12:48amElizabeth
make it the way i want it
12:49amJessica
not true
u hold off
ur very scared
but
u love
12:49amElizabeth
I do I am
12:50amJessica
i know
and it shows
even though u hold it
12:50amElizabeth
really?
12:52amElizabeth
I hope some people pick up on it
12:52amJessica
i did
12:52amJessica
u are warm in ur own cold way
u really
are
and that means a lot more than just words
u act ur love
ur there for the people u care about
12:54amElizabeth
Its true
12:54amJessica
u kidding!
its totally true
12:54amElizabeth
I know
I agree
12:54amJessica
it doesn't take a genius
it takes sensibility
12:55amElizabeth
well it takes someone looking
12:56amJessica
yes
maybe in ur most beautiful u
or the most proportionate
ur there for the people u care about
1:00amElizabeth
hmm proportionate?
1:00amJessica
its about that
sometimes we are too much of something we are
sometimes to little
theirs always a measurement
that makes the perfect recipe
but we are not always in perfect balance
so people don't always see that possible "perfection"
u know this!

Things I need to hear

Liz,

YOU

are

THE

one

who is and CAN be the lead of the story

I am serious

Genny

Travel dates

Ok so here are the tentative dates so far...
More details to follow when I have em worked out.

Costa Rica Jan 11th - 18th

Nicaragua Jan 19th - 24th

Costa Rica Jan 25th - Feb 14th

Los Angeles Feb 15th -Feb 17th

Kathmandu Feb 18th - March 4th

New Dehli March 5th -11 th

Im the kinda girl...

Who has to try everything 3 times..

1 time to say that I did it
2 to make sure I didn't like it
3 to make sure that I have enough regrets to move on to the next thing.

ahhh, I had a good summer looking forward to January ;)

Start of my day

I went hiking again this morning around 7:45 am and as I was making my way back down I saw a Buddhist monk struggling up the hill.
I smiled and nodded discreetly. I didnt think it was right to bow seeing as how he was sweating and all.
I was left thinking this little moment was just a nice reminder that each one of us struggles with our own forms of samsara.

Thank you for the lesson mister monk ;)

Faith and Wisdom

Ok, the tea I drink has little fortunes attached to each tea bag so when you open em up you get a new one.

Well, here's mine from last night:

"May you have faith in your worth and act with wisdom".

Simple yet fitting.

Thank you, Yogi India Spice , for your insight into my life ;)

Lunch

Quinoa beet salad and vegan egg salad on yeast free wheat free bread. I take my health very seriously but not seriously enough to quit smoking...yet.

Butts.

What am I going to do with my"not my cat"cat?!

Not November.

I refuse to accept that its November and even though I'm cold "everywhere but Central America" I've been putting on my bikini to tan in the morning while I drink my tea!!

Perspective

I was so attached to my job for a year thinking I couldn't leave it and now I cant wait to kiss this view goodbye!!

Ready to go!

Got my back pack yesterday!! It's awesome!! So, excited. Been hiking so much I'm getting tan lines from my sports bra. Feels like I'm really on my way... cant wait!

It took me like an hour to get it fitted properly. I Googled how to do it and came upon this really informative and thorough website that had step by step instructions and diagrams. I like really well described instructions and so of course I'm a sucker for a good diagram ;)

http://www.trailstobuild.com/Articles/Backpack_fitting_guide.htm

Getting started...

So, that's what I'm up to just getting started. Getting everything set up for the big trip, taking off on January 11th...getting the blog set up, finding someone to sublet my place and filling up my i-pod with the necessary music!!

Where am I going you ask?

Well I'm finally at a place in my life where I feel like everything is sorta taken care of and I can finally ask myself "What do I want?". Not only that but I'm actually in a position to answer back with a real sense of clarity.

So, I've decided that I'm giving up the joby job and taking off for three months.
I'm heading back to Costa Rica and Nicaragua for a month, then off to Nepal for a 6 day meditation retreat at a Buddhist monastery and as scared as I am of traveling India alone I would totally regret it if I didn't hit up New Dehli after.

The last two years I was working on this dating book entitled, " Dating advice from two tattooed chicks who are currently single and not dating", I was telling a friend that I'd actually picked up the project again and he suggested that because I was taking this trip I should really start a blog and sorta fuse the two... never tried a blog before but thought I'd give it a go.....